Kepala pusing, mata ampir nutup, temukan jawabnya

Kepala pusing, mata ampir nutup, temukan jawabnya

Setelah mengikuti coding dari e-book & ternyata tidak menyelesaikan masalah...
Akhirnya googling gimana cara nampilin arraylist ke datagrid.
Cara yang dituturkan sama dengan yang kubaca dari e-book (yang mana tidak berhasil).
Lalu ada yang kasih petunjuk ternyata emang ga bisa tuh, dan dikasih cara dengan membuat datatable saja, selanjutnya datasource datagrid ditujukan ke datatable tersebut.
Yes! Akhirnya bisa dengan cara tersebut...
Yeah, kepala dah pusing, mata dah tinggal 5 watt, ketemulah solusinya, sayang sudah ga kuat 'tuk meneruskan lebih lanjut. Bobo dulu ah...

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Diburu waktu, otak buntu

Diburu waktu, otak buntu

Diburu waktu...
Pelajari hal baru...
Otak buntu...
Tercampur rasa haru biru...

Kupikir aku sudah tidak mau dipusingkan oleh hal ini, tapi ternyata aku masih menyukainya...

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Same Old Brand New You - A1

Same Old Brand New You - A1

I can still remember the time you were there
When I needed to hold you, feel you
Everytime I ask you to find a new way
You lie a new way
Is it gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

You'll change
You'll never change
You're never never gonna keep your promises x 2

You said you'd change
But I'm afraid
It's something I won't live to see
It's seems so strange
That sometimes fate
Can appear to be so real
And yet turn out to be a fantasy

Same old line, one more time
Say you're gonna be, there for me
Say you'll change, change your ways
Never gonna keep your promises
Same old game ( Ben - You know it doesn't turn me on)
Brand new day (Ben - You're singing that same old song)
No more lies (Ben - If you don't wanna find me gone, gone, gone, gone, gone)

Another night, another day
What can I say
You're still the same old brand new you
You break your promises in two
What can I do
When you're the same old brand new you

You'll change, you'll never change
You're never never gonna keep your promises x 2

Because of you, I guess we're through
Is this the way it has to be
I've been a fool (Ben - I've been a fool)
A fool for you (Ben - A fool for you)
But I've got better things to do than let you walk all over me

Same old line, one more time
Say you're gonna be, there for me
Say you'll change, change your ways
Never gonna keep your promises
Same old game (Ben - You know it doesn't turn me on)
Brand new day (Ben - You're singing that same old song)
No more lies (Ben - If you don't wanna find me gone, gone, gone, gone, gone)

Another night, another day
What can I say
You're still the same old brand new you
You break your promises in two
What can I do
When you're the same old brand new you

I can still remember the time you were there
When I needed to hold you, feel you
Everytime I ask you to find a new way
You lie a new way
Is it gone, gone, gone, gone, gone

(Instrumental break)

You'll change, you'll never change
You're never never gonna keep your promises x 2

Same old line, one more time
Say you're gonna be, there for me
Say you'll change, change your ways
Never gonna keep your promises
Same old game (Ben - You know it doesn't turn me on)
Brand new day (Ben - You're singing that same old song)
No more lies (Ben - If you don't wanna find me gone, gone, gone, gone, gone)

Another night, another day
What can I say
You're still the same old brand new you
You break your promises in two
What can I do
When you're still the same old brand new you

Another night, another day
What I can say
You break your promises in two
What can I do

Another night, another day
What I can say
You're still the same old brand new you
You break your promises in two
What can I do
You're still the same old brand new you

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My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do [CD version]
All the stuff that you do [radio edited version]

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

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Coffee addict

Coffee addict

3 cups of coffee per day...
kapal api vs torabika vs nescafe
prefer nescafe, good composition :)
The good smell of coffee... can't resist...

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Unforgivable Sinner - Lene Marlin

Unforgivable Sinner - Lene Marlin

Kinda lose your sense of time
'Cause the days don't matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside
You hope she knows you tried

Follows you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
'Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see

You know where you've sent her
You should know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner

You've been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won't ever be the same
Someone cries and you're to blame

Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you'll defeat
The picture you see it won't disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or her voice you hear

You know where you've sent her
You should know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner

Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before
You hit the ground
Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before
You hit the ground - hit the ground

You know where you've sent her
You should know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable sinner

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Membekas di Hati - La Luna

Membekas di Hati - La Luna

perpisahan ini bukanlah pilihanku
kau yang pergi meninggalkan aku

pernah aku memuja dirimu
mencintamu setulus hatiku

kau yang slalu aku puja
ternyata menduakan aku
mengkhianati cintaku
tak pernah ku membayangkan
kau kan melukai hatiku
hancurkan mimpiku tinggalkan aku

mungkin aku bukanlah pilihanmu
tak seperti yang kau mau

kau yang slalu aku puja
ternyata menduakan aku
mengkhianati cintaku
tak pernah ku membayangkan
kau kan melukai hatiku
hancurkan mimpiku tinggalkan aku

sakit yang kurasa
takkan mudah sirna
membekas di hati ku terluka
entah sampai kapan
ku harus bertahan
melawan sedihku sendiri

kau yang slalu aku puja
ternyata menduakan aku
mengkhianati cintaku
tak pernah ku membayangkan
kau kan melukai hatiku
hancurkan mimpiku tinggalkan aku

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Better in Time - Leona Lewis

Better in Time - Leona Lewis

(Ooooh)

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time

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Apologize - OneRepublic

Apologize - OneRepublic

[Verse 1]
I'm hangin' on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground.
And I'm hearin' what you say,
But I just can't make a sound.
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down...
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around...
And say...

[Chorus]
That it's too late to apologize.
It's too late...
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
Yeah!

[Verse 2]
I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, you're not the angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid...

[Chorus]
It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
Whoa!

[Interlude]

[Chorus]
It's too late to apologize.
It's too late.
I said it's too late to apologize.
It's too late.

It's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I said it's too late to apologize. YEAH!
I'm holdin' on your rope,
got me ten feet off the ground.

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Akhirnya tdak kerja lagi...

Akhirnya tdak kerja lagi...

Ga tahu kenapa nih komputer jadi lelet banget, ga sabaran jadinya. Mau ngelanjutin project jadi ogah2an. Mungkin kena virus yah tapi ga tahu virus apaan, mau scan virus juga ogah2an abis lama banget. Dah aku pake TuneUp Utilities tadi tapi ternyata ga ada pengaruhnya.

So, mestinya malam ini mau ngelanjutin project yang dah terbengkalai beberapa hari (karena masalah pribadi yg menyebabkan tidak bisa konsentrasi), eh malah akhirnya tidak dikerjain :p

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I Will Come - The True Worshippers

I Will Come - The True Worshippers

I'm invited

To the feast
That my King
Has prepared

Though I'm weak
And unworthy
Yet my King
Will let me in

And I will come
I will sing
And I will open up my heart
And let You in
For You have washed away my sins
And Your blood had made me clean
I will come
I will come
I will sing

I will run
To the cross
Where my King
Has set me free

And I will worship
At Your feet
For You die
That I may live

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Kutahu Bapa Peliharaku - Edward Chen

Kutahu Bapa Peliharaku - Edward Chen

我知道天父保守着我, 他真好, 他真好
我相信他总是伴随我, 他对我真是好
经过暴风的试探
最终有好事物的来到
我知道天父保守着我, 他对我真是好

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I Korintus 3:16-17

I Korintus 3:16-17

Tidak tahukah kamu, bahwa kamu adalah bait Allah dan Roh Allah diam di dalam kamu? Jika ada orang yang membinasakan bait Allah, maka Allah akan membinasakan dia. Sebab bait Allah adalah kudus dan bait Allah itu ialah kamu.

Bapa, ampuni hambamu ini, yang tidak menjaga baitmu dengan baik
Berulang kali hambamu membuat cemar baitmu ini....
Dan kumendukakan rohMu lagi dan lagi...
Kusalibkan Engkau sekali dan sekali lagi...

Sungguh, ku tak layak dapatkan kasih & pengampunanMu
Tapi Kau masih mengasihiku & menjaga, besertaku setiap waktu...

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I Will Remember You - Sarah McLachlan

I Will Remember You - Sarah McLachlan

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

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Surprise...

Surprise...

After couldn't sleep well last night 'cause I try to reinstall/repair my VB.NET installation, which end up with the same error! :(
Today, I turn on my computer, and wow, surprise, my profile back to normal again!!
So, what did I do last night?? Really wasting my time, if only I knew all I got to do is just log off and login again, so simple :p
But, dunno if that problem came up again and can't be fixed, so I better back up my system now :p

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Obstruction

Obstruction

Want to continue working on my project..

Suddenly, got trouble with my windows, my profile can't be accessed.
So, my windows just like I never login before.
And the bad news is, the VB.NET became error!!
My work really obstructed... :(

Meanwhile, hearing news about my x-yg, having an ill, make me confused, want to visit him but can't... only can pray for him getting well soon...

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Foolish Beat - Debbie Gibson

Foolish Beat - Debbie Gibson

Verse 1:
There was a time when
Broken hearts and broken dreams
Were over.
There was a place where
All you could do was
Wish on a four leaf clover.

But now is a new time
There is a new place
Where dreams just cant come true.
It started the day when I left you

Chorus:
I could never love again the way that I loved you
I could never cry again like I did when I left you
And when we said goodbye,
Oh the look in your eyes
Just left me beside myself without your heart
(without your heart)
I could never love again now that we're apart

Verse 2:
When I was sorry
It was too late to turn around (turn around)
And tell you so.
There was no reason
There was no reason
Just a foolish beat of my heart.

Chorus

Bridge:
Oh, cant you see Im not fooling nobody
Don't you see the tears are falling down my face
Since you went away
Break my heart, you slipped away
Didn't know I was wrong
Never meant to hurt you now you're gone

I could never love again now that we're apart.
(now that were apart)
I could never love again now that we're apart.

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Ribetnya pake VB.NET

Ribetnya pake VB.NET

Tentang projectku lagi & VB.NET...
Akhirnya berhasil mengganti nama header kolom Data Grid pakai TableStyles.
Eh, malah ganti List Box nya ga bisa munculin data.
Setelah pusing berjam-jam, ga tahu apa yang salah..., akhirnya ketemu juga.
Ternyata VB.NET ini "case-sensitive" !! -> hanya persoalan yang sepele
Selama ini aku pakai VB 6 ga pernah peduliin huruf besar ato kecil, nyampur semua. Kali ini aku harus lebih berhati-hati dengan penggunaan huruf.

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Dia Memilih Disalib

Dia Memilih Disalib

Raja segala raja
Tuhan segala Tuhan
Yang tinggalkan kemuliaanNya
Turun ke dunia

Dia lewati semua
Hidup sebagai hamba
Dia setia hingga akhirnya
Dia minum cawan kematianNya

Dia memilih disalib
Dia memilih kayu yang kasar
Dan paku yang tajam

Dia rendahkan diriNya
Dan curahkan darahNya
Dia Tuhan dia raja
Dia memilih disalib

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The Second You Sleep - Saybia

The Second You Sleep - Saybia

You close your eyes
And leave me naked by your side
You close the door so I can’t see
The love you keep inside
The love you keep for me

It fills me up
It feels like living in a dream
It fills me up so I can’t see
The love you keep inside
The love you keep for me

I stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you’ll be gone
It gives me time to stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you’ll be gone
I wish by God you’d stay

I stay awake
I stay awake and watch you breathe
I stay awake and watch you fly
Away into the night
Escaping through a dream

I stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you’ll be gone
It gives me time to stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you’ll be gone
I wish by God you’d stay

Hey
Stay

I stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you’ll be gone
It gives me time to stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you’ll be gone
It gives me time to stay
To watch you fade away
I dream of you tonight
Tomorrow you’ll be gone
I wish by God you’d stay

Stay awake
Stay
Stay

I wish by God you’d stay

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If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys

If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys

Mmmmmm Mmmm mm ooo

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]
If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

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Finally... My very first FORM

Finally... My very first FORM

After 5 days...
Finally... I can finish my very first, very simple FORM
Still a long way to go before finish this project ... :p

As far as I can tell, VB.NET is cool, eventhough I'm facing troubles using it 'cause not very familiar and I'm weak in Object Oriented Programming (OOP).
So I think I'll continue to use this instead of VB 6.0 which I usually use. Maybe it's too late to realize and upgrade myself, but it's better to be late than not at all, right... ;)

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Pemilu Legislatif 9 Apr 2009

Pemilu Legislatif 9 Apr 2009

Hari ini Pemilu Legislatif, seperti pemilu2 & pilkada2 sebelumnya, ke TPS yang hanya berjarak beberapa langkah dari rumah.
Yang beda di Pemilu kali ini yaitu bukan "nyoblos" tapi "nyontreng".
Yah biarpun kaga ngerti siapa yang mesti dipilih, aku ikutan nyontreng juga sebagai warga negara yang baik yang menggunakan hak pilihnya. :D

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Ganti suasana

Ganti suasana

Dari kemarin malam, keluar dari rumah, ganti suasana, nginap di tempat adik. Lumayan juga sih ada di sini, paling tidak ga sesumpek di rumah. Yang jelas sepi alias ga ada telp ato orang2 yang nge-bel, karena aku cuma nongkrong di lt.3

Bagus juga suasana di sini untuk bikin projectku, sebelum sekarang, sekarang nih di belakang lagi muter lagu house music hehe, bikin konsentrasi jadi rada terganggu.

Well, about my project, belum ada perkembangan yang berarti... mana tubuh dah capek... ngopi dulu ah...

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Tired...

Tired...

Suddenly, I feel sooo tired...
My stomach begin to have problem again
My eyes can't be widely open
My back feels hurt
I just want to lay down
I think I'm already sick right now... :(

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Give up on MySQL

Give up on MySQL

Using VB.NET without using ADO.NET ??

After thinking and trying and confusing, I give up on MySQL
'cause I can't use the .NET Connector - means I won't use ADO.NET
and the second reason I can't fill DataGrid using data from MySQL, so strange

So, I decide to back to the basic, use SQLServer instead of MySQL
And that means I'll use ADO.NET off course :p
Eventhough that won't make me finish this project faster
'cause I'll have to learn this new things
But, I won't learn if not being pushed this way right? ;p

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Gong to be thin or going to be sick

Gong to be thin or going to be sick

Almost one month I lost my appetite...

The project that have been given to me which I'm starting to work on, make me get my appetite again, but on the contrary my stomach can't compromise. I couldn't eat normally yesterday, and today I can eat more but everything I put into my stomach just out not so long after I ate. So I'm kinda have conflict inside my body.

I think sooner or later I'm going to be thin or going to be sick

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Give up

Give up

Eventually, I give up....
wait, don't get wrong, this is not about love.. :p

After one and a half day trying to find solution how to connect VB.NET to MySQL using MySQL Connector NET, became frustated, I give up
So, I'm going back to use MyODBC instead, than wasting anymore time..

Hope I can finish this project soon, so I can go out of this town

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Right To Be Wrong - Joss Stone

Right To Be Wrong - Joss Stone

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
I'm flesh and blood to the bone
I'm not made of stone
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down too long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

You're entitled to your opinion
But it's really my decision
I can't turn back I'm on a mission
If you care don't you dare blur my vision
Let me be all that I can be
Don't smother me with negativity
Whatever's out there waiting for me
I'm going to faced it willingly

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
Flesh and blood to the bone
See, I'm not made of stone
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down to long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

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Jadul (Jaman Dulu)

Jadul (Jaman Dulu)

Lagi keranjingan upload foto di picasa nih.
Bagus juga naruh foto di web seperti kata x-yg.
Hari ini aku upload foto2 jadul.
Tiba2 jadi terharu, kenapa ya...
Masa lalu yang takkan terulang lagi...

NB: Bagi yang pingin lihat, silahkan browse di picasaweb.google.com/z.lixiu

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Bersepeda

Bersepeda

Barusan hujan deras, jalanan depan rumah tergenang air dikit.
Ambil sepeda, keluar rumah, salah paham, kirain bertugas.
Akhirnya aku kayuh sepeda muterin Sumber Mulyo, Gundih.
Enak juga sih udara sejuk karena baru hujan.
Tapi masih agak gerimis, jadi aku urung muter2 lebih jauh.
Kepalaku jadi basah kena air hujan karena ga pake topi.
Sometime, pingin muterin kota tercinta ini pake sepeda.
Seru kali yah dari ujung ke ujung, ato mungkin sekalian kalo jembatan ke Madura udah selesai, sekalian nyabrang aja ke sana hehe. Bener2 pikiran orang stress.

Jadi teringat kembali ke desa di ujung pulau Jawa.
Mungkin asyik juga yah kalo bisa keliling2 di sana naik sepeda.
Mana udaranya ga seberpolusi Surabaya.
Ah, dasar bodoh, ngapain ingat2 itu lagi...

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Cuaca yang muram

Cuaca yang muram

Hari baru di bulan baru.
Berharap semua pun menjadi baru.
Ternyata cuaca hari ini muram, 'dull sky'
Langit hanya berwarna putih & suram.
Matahari hanya nongol sebentar, 2x saja.
Lalu hujan turun, pun sebentar.
Benar2 cuaca yang muram, sama seperti suasana hatiku.

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